Struggle Is My Comfort Zone

Struggle is my comfort zone,
That’s just the way I roll,
I can’t do joy, I can’t do peace,
Cause pain ignites my soul,
I’ll never understand it,
But I live it every day,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
There is no other way.

Struggle is my comfort zone,
I’m forged from hardened steel,
My life is complicated,
There’s no room to think or feel,
But still I battle onwards,
Where the war is fought at cost,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
Where mostly, I am lost.

Struggle is my comfort zone,
Somehow I disconnect,
From misery and treachery,
From hate and sheer neglect,
I bottle up the anger,
Trying not to let it breathe,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
My heart is on my sleeve.

Struggle is my comfort zone,
I yell, I curse, I scream,
My friends have all abandoned me,
I guess I’m not their scene,
Perhaps my illness was too loud,
They couldn’t hear my voice,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
I have no other choice.

Struggle is my comfort zone,
It’s really do or die,
Exhausted by frustrations,
All I do is try and try,
To keep my soul from drowning,
In this tide of pain and fear,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
I’m sure that’s pretty clear.

Struggle is my comfort zone,
For years I’ve fought as one,
I’ve tried to do the best I can,
Sometimes I come undone,
By thoughts and feelings run amok,
A complicated mess,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
My heart is in distress.

Struggle is my comfort zone,
And yet another sees,
The hurt, the pain, the discontent,
The yearning to be free,
Not all is lost, for I have found,
A way to verbal through,
Struggle is my comfort zone,
But hope is with me too.

© The Complicated Bunny – 09 Sep 2020